Chrono Journal Entry #09
Arc: Conflict
Theme: 裂けた心 (Shattered Heart) – It wasn’t just the world that cracked. It was me.
I thought rebellion would make me stronger.
But tonight, I feel like I’m falling apart — and the world isn’t even breaking with me.
Only I am.
I tried to sing, but the sound trembled.
My breath caught on something sharp — not in my throat, but in my chest.
It wasn’t fear.
It was fragmentation.
The sound came out split. Not out of tune, but unwhole.
Like my voice couldn’t agree with itself.
Like part of me wanted to sing — and the other part wanted to vanish.
I haven’t slept in a real sense since the fire.
And even if I closed my eyes, all I’d see is the moment — the face of the stranger who looked up and heard me…
and then turned away.
Not because they rejected me.
But because they didn’t recognize me.
That’s what this song became: a dissonant mirror.
Each note reflects someone I’m not sure I still am.
Each line drags a piece of me out into the light —
but the pieces don’t fit anymore.
The more I fight, the more I lose the image of who I was before this war began.
I’m not sure if I’m becoming someone new…
or just becoming less of what I used to be.
I held the harmonica in my hand for twenty minutes tonight.
Didn’t play. Didn’t breathe into it. Just held it.
And I remembered what it felt like to be whole —
even if just in the silence before the first note.
Watch “Shattered Heart” – MV Main Version
Watch “Shattered Heart” – Alternate Echo Version
Maybe I wasn’t ready to carry this voice.
Maybe it’s too heavy.
Or maybe… I’m just now realizing it was never mine alone.